| FOR MY FRIENDS |
[Aug. 17th, 2007|08:02 pm] |
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This is why I always say I love You....
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>
> This has not been broken since 9/11/01, please keep it
going..
> This has been kept alive and moving since 9/11. In memory
of
> all those who perished this morning; the passengers and
the
> pilots on the United Air and AA flights, the workers in
the
> World Trade Center and the Pentagon, and all the innocent
> bystanders Our prayers go out to the friends and families
of
> the deceased.
>
>
>
> IF I KNEW
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> That I'd see you fall asleep,
> I would tuck you in more tightly
> and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> that I see you walk out the door,
> I would give you a hug and kiss
> and call you back for one more
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
> I would video tape each action and word,
> so I could play them back day after day.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time,!
> I could spare an extra minute
> to stop and say "I love you,"
> instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> I would be there to share your day,
> Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
> so I can let just this one slip away.
>
> For surely there's always tomorrow
> to make up for an oversight,
> and we always get a second chance
> to make everything just right.
>
> There will l always be another day
> to say "I love you,"
> And certainly there's another chance
> to say our "Anything I can do?"
>
> But just in case I might be wrong,
> and today is all I get,
> I'd like to say how much I love you
> and I hope we never forget.
>
> Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
> young or old alike,
> And today may be the last chance
> you get to hold your loved one tight.
>
> So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
> why not do it today?
> For if tomorrow never comes,
> you'll surely regret the day,
>
> That you didn't take that extra time
> for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
> and you were too busy to grant someone,
> what turned out to be their one last wish.
>
> So hold your loved ones close today,
> and whisper in their ear,
> Tell them how much you love them
> and that you'll always hold them dear
>
> Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
> "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
> And if tomorrow never comes,
> you'll have no regrets about today. |
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| yeah |
[Aug. 16th, 2007|08:25 pm] |
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Well McDonalds is great. right now I'm doing computer trainning for three days and then I work on the floor which is fucking awsome. I'm learing how to finally be independent and get this that I want. Even though I can't get everything that I want with the kind of paycheck I'm getting I will be able to save up and just have spending money. Well McDonald is a temporary in my opinion. I'm not staying there forever now. I got dreams that got to come true. it a first job and I just need some job exprience. Being nineteen years old!!! I'm so happy that I finally stepping outside of myself. I'm feeling more like a better me everyday. I feel cute. I can't describe it at the moment but I'll let you know what I mean. oh I got it...I feel so alive. Like Celine Dions song "I'm alive". that one of my all time favorite songs on earth. |
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| I'm back |
[Aug. 14th, 2007|01:20 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
Just got back from Tallahassee. I had a good time. I actually got emotional over something but God show me the way. Praise him. Chruch was God but I just ignore the stuff about Gay people because I'm not perfect and I won't apologize for who I am. I found out a lot of things about my families past that I don't like at all and it kind of makes me sad but it's the past. So may peoples husbands are cheating and that is ashame. Both of my Great aunts Husbands are cheating on them. That fuck up because the husbands are old as fuck and the probably can't get the shit up. My dads sister husband is cheating on her. I'm mad with aunt shell but she is so sweet and a good person at heart. Her husband isn't hot shit. She can do so much better. I guess it's the money that he has and but she doesn't seem to be the type to be a gold digger. Let me tell you this ... her son is sleeping with the woman that her husband is sleeping with that is so fucked up and that makes me mad. Why would someone want to hurt their mom like that. I'm more grateful that I have more self love and my heart is beginning to get the joy again. I miss you lonna. I'm going to hit up boo. |
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| this life |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|03:01 pm] |
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I'M SO MOODY ALL THE TIME. I'M JUST SO SILLY. WAS ABOUT TO CRY BECAUSE WAS ON A DATING SITE AND I SAW AD AND THIS GUY IS HIV POSTIVE AND THATS SO SAD BECAUSE IT GOING TO BE SO HARD FOR HIM TO FIND LOVE. I WOULDN'T WANT TO DATE HIM. THAT GOT TO BE HARD TO DIE LIKE THAT. I WISH HIM THE BEST THOUGH AND I PRAY THAT HE'LL BE ALL RIGTH. GOD SEND YOU ANGEL AROUND HIM. THERES SO MUCH I HAVE TO THANKS FOR BECAUSE I'M SICK. I was so speechles when I read his profile. I would like to be his friend but I just can't deal with a friend that really going to die infront of me. I could handle that because thats intense. Believe it or not we have been dieing since the day that we were born but for someone to HIV they die fast. The meds have going better though. this is depressing though. |
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| I did it |
[Aug. 8th, 2007|04:55 pm] |
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I got a job and I start training on next tuesday. This is really good because I got hired on the spot. I guess theatre training pays off. I did and I so proud of myself. Welcome to McDonalds my I take your order. That is going to be something because I going to fun across crazy as people because the people that work there are really ghetto but I love it. My manager Jaquita is something else but I guess she saw something in me. Today I work a poem before my interview. Oh yeah highest praises to God because he made this possible as far as the job and stuff. Here it goes...
Life is full of many things and I realize that times are truly hard .I intend to keep my head up when the road gets pot holes. I notice that every bump in the road is a lesson that I most learn. I'm going to keep learning to the day I die. It's not over till it's over babe. Look at me and tell me that you don't see something special. Ha I just laugh because I know for a fact that you're a liar. The things you tell me seems to hurt but I know that you love me. Its time time to say good bye because I realize as much as I love you... it's time to go out seperate ways. If I see you again then that fine because far a fact, I know we'll be friends.
This has no meaning, I just wrote it. |
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| I'm happy |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|04:40 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
I deserve my happiness and I going to have it for a long time because I have no reasons to be mad anymore. My dad pissed me off yesterday but you know that natural because thats just father and son stuff. I'm truly glad that we fight about minor things. I get mad at time because I want to come out to his but I can't because he just can't take. If my mom doesn't understand it so I know that daddy won't. That hurts but shit I'm fine about it because I just have to accept that in my heart and I doing that gradually. I so proud that I can still be myself at home. My dad brought me having kids and I was frozen inside because I know that I don't want any at the moment. He want grand childern and I'm not giving him any. Sometimes I feel thats punishing him for all the times that he did me wrong but that wrong for me to think that way so I apologize God because I don't mean what I say at time. |
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| I sort of want him back |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|04:31 pm] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
Today I talk to my ex over the phone. My God how much I miss him. Am I in love with him? I'm so cofused but I want him back But affraid thats not good for me but its seems he's matured lately. I can't believe I'm saying this. I use to cry so much about how I hurt him and I'm going to be the better person and apologize. I don't think he'll take me back so I'm not going to even try. I'll just be his friend and I'll see where that leaves us. I think I playing iti smart this time. I was thinking that maybe I he's the one I should probably have sex with him but I can't do it because I'm still waiting. I don't think I should get my emotions in a bunch. I'm beginning to because such a better person everyday. I have to tell myself this because it's so true. I'm a good person and my heart is truly something special and I've deny that for a long time. I such a sweetheart. I can't help myself. Thats just me. I sit back thinking how far I come and I'm doing this that 40 year haven't done yet. I'm getting my life in order and I'm scared but I not affraid to jump of a bluiding if I have to. |
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| Love |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|06:52 pm] |
Right now I got through talking to Jonathan about this guy that heart his feeling. I see it as this. He was trying to be honest with my friend. He got out of a 11 month relationship and he just want to be friends with Jonathan. I personally thinks thats great in my opinion because he was being honest. Jonathan was so hard head and I told me not to get too excited of this dude. I told him and I don't want to be an ass and say I told you so. I would so date Dennis if Jonathan wasn't my friend but I wouldn't do that to friend. He's honest and thats so important in any relationship. I truly hope that I can get jonathan to see that he shouldn't be depressed about a guy. Thats just dumb. All he needs to do is work on himself and not worry about love. He's 20 years old and love will find his way. Well anyway I'm trying to become someone that is truly world worthy. I Know that I love everyone and at times I get hurt because I love so easily but it's just me. I'm single, fly, and not to forget sexy. ha ha. Atleast I try to be. Someone is going to be truly lucky to get a hold on me. I got to go but I will hit lj later. |
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| Myself |
[Aug. 5th, 2007|10:41 am] |
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| | good mood | ] |
Well last night Abby, Laura, and I went to Coliseum which is like one of my favorite places and I haven't been there in months and I don't even remember how long it's been since I was last there. Now I can say that I went and it never fails me because I always have good time there.vI feel like I can be myself and not sugar coat anything. I love my Laura and Abby. Point blank...all of my girlfriend from highschool are dope as fuck and I ain't liein. There was just one or two girls that I didn't like but I like most of them. That is cool because whenever I want to chill, they are down for whatever. Every girl tells me the same thing about Coli and it never Fail. It so much better than all of the clubs because you don't have to worry about being voilated by guys and you can just chill and dance anyway you feel and not be judged as much. A cute guy dance with Abby and I thought that was so much fun for her. I don't know if he is gay but hell who cares. Laura was groovin and that was great. Not only what Cesar Valulu was there and I know he had a blast. We met his friends and they were pretty nice. Gosh I which I knew there names but with the loud music...I can't understand shit. I actually noticed that I'm a little wild when it comes to the dance. This guy came up to me and started dance then he back off because I guess his friend dragged him out of the hiphop room. He and Cesars friend notice that and we were so confuse. It was like you want me but you don't. You know I wasn't mad or anything. I just laughed it off. He was cute though. So I saw him late and I start dancing on the big box and I backed it up on him like not tomrw. Lmao because he had to adjust himself. Ha ha that ass of mine never fails me. Lol. You we didn't exchange numbers or anything like that but we danced for a while. That was great because at that moment I realize that there is nothing wrong with me. I know I'm okay looking and stuff. There was just a lot inside me that I had to deal with last week and this week. I'm feeling better inside though. That is so great. I remember that you can't find love at the Club. That is my moto and it's not going to change. I love you all. |
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| Pat Rice |
[Aug. 3rd, 2007|08:18 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
I am offically over New World. My new installment in life started now. Patrice Wrote me a letter so here it goes. I know I had errors in my letter too but she had a little boo boo so I feel much better. Here is goes..........
Dear Lemuel,
Congratulations!!!! I think it is wonderful that you have decided to go
into physcial therapy. I think that you will find your theater
training to come in handy!!! I have worked with a number of physcial
therapist during the past 10 years due to my mother illness and they have all
been such wonderful people. You have made an enormous step to have the
courage to step away from the program and do what you feel you were
meant to do. You will be a wonderful physical theapist and I look forward
to hearing about your work.
I have read your letter and I certaintly take it to heart. Please
understand that the faculty do not want to dismiss any student from the
program, however if students are not doing the work and have below a B
average in their Arts classes it does not leave us a choice. Any
dismissal from the program is decided by the faculty. You are very generous
to offer your scholarship to GladysI agree that she is very special! If
you see her tell her to stop by the office for a chat. However,
Scholarships are also decided by the faculty but I will take your
recommendation to them when school begins. You have also made a terrific
recommendation for mentorship. Let me see what I can do.
Thank you for the kind words and please keep in touch and stop by the
office to visit.
Patrice |
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